Stephen F Austin to Mary Austin Holley, 11-14-1831
Summary: Ill for 45 days. Likes idea of publicity for Texas now, though policy the opposite until recently. Partnership with Hawkins. Attitude of settlers toward Austin's relatives.
My dear Cousin
I received yours of
I like the idea of a
notice of this country that will make it better
known. I believe the time has now come for such a thing. The
opposite to this, however, has been my policy, until a year or so
past. This I can better explain verbally. I should have replied
to the queries of the "London Geographical Society" had I not
been in bed for forty five days.
As to my premium land and private affairs, you will be much surprised to learn exactly how they stand; and will feel much inclined to say that I have been a faithful servant to all the colonists except one; that one is—Stephen F Austin.
All the premium land I hold around and below Brazoria is in
partnership with the heirs of my old friend, Joseph Hawkins Esq:
and so entangled that I, myself, know not what to do with it. But,
if I enter on this matter now I shall worry myself.
I must apprize you of one thing that you may not be too much
disturbed when you notice it. The mass of the Colonists look on
all relations of mine who come here with envy and suspicion and
great jealousy. The reason is this. They
suspect that something
more will be done for them than for those who " bore the brunt of
the battle "
I fear (judging by my own experience) that the predominant
traits in the North American character are ingratitude, selfishness,
and avarice. The people of this Colony have caused (what I had
formerly said was impossible) a shade of misanthropy to pass over
me. I do not say that it
dwells in my mind, long at a time. But to
know ourselves is a difficult task, if not impossible, and perhaps it
is a more settled conviction than I allow. Would that it were but
the airy nothing of a fevered brain.
Gen. Terran has arrived at Anahuac—
positive— I must see him;
and shall leave here in a carriage for that purpose, in a few days,
if able to do so. I do not see that we can meet until I return from
I must stop, for this effort has cost me all my strength. I have
a letter from your brother, John P Austin, by " the Boston " in at
Farewell: I am truly anxious to see you. Think well
this country before you finally remove, so as to be fully contented